Sunday, October 3, 2010

Private Panic / Public Fabulousness

So despite my last post, I have been putting on a pretty good game face.  While my plateau is a bit infuriating and causing my inner angst, there have been some good things this week too!

A little background:  I love make-up.  Buying it, wearing it, applying it.  I am good at it.  My gays in my local MAC used to love to see me come in because I bought a crapload of product every time and I would let them experiment with my face. The bolder and brighter the better.  No neutrals. So for me to not wear at least mascara for over a year is a sure sign of MAJOR DEPRESSION.  Part of that is work, part is weight gain, and part is the stormy relationship with the EX.

Work for me is a mixed bag of boredom, frustration, and resignation.  I wish I loved my job, but I really don't.  For the last year, that has been clear to everyone by the hair in a bun at the nape of my neck schoolmarm style and the completely make-up free face I present every morning. 

All of that changed on Monday when I went to work.  I did my hair and put on make-up.  I took care to find a good outfit and I felt great.  I have kept it up every day last week.

Except Thursday.  Thursday I woke up late and didn't do my hair or makeup.  No big deal right.  Well, Thursday night I was sitting on the subway when I looked up and saw this:
MR. BIG was sitting across from me with all of his old Hollywood movie star handsome hotness.  No one else seemed to notice.  I surreptitiously put on some lip gloss and tossed in a piece of gum just in case.  Needless to say, he didn't talk to me.  I mean 29lbs is a great start, but I have a ways to go before I can turn the head of a man who dates women who look like this:

So moral of the story: look your best at all times because you just never know.


  1. i love the moral of this story!...I try to look my best but I'm just too tired to be bothered most of the time.

  2. I completely know what you mean! You can always tell my self confidence level based on the level of care I put into my looks. I use to wear makeup all the time, although I am more neutral with it. But I haven't wore it in years! I tell people it is motherhood, but the truth is, last time I lost any significant weight I found myself caring again. Of course since I gained it all back, I am back to being the "busy mom who doesn't have time for hair and makeup". I am hoping this will change again. My husband always comments when I "do myself up".

  3. That's a great story... I love it! You're doing great! *Maria*

  4. OMG!!! You saw Mr. Big. I mean Chris Noth. I love that man. He is gorgeous!

    On the topic. I truely understand about looking your best. It never fails I will look great and nothing, but the minute I walk out of the house looking like a train wreck, I see the finest specimen to walk the earth. Happened this past Saturday. All I could do was look away.

    Oh & BTW, I just LOVE make up. Girl we would have so much fun on the next BOOBs event. Thank you for your comment on my blog. I'm the rules can be tossed for us ;-).

    Happy Monday!!

  5. OMG I would have pretended the subway lurched and threw me straight into his lap he is total hotness!